Why Feel When You Can Pay

Felt the most wonderful sadness today
Got taken there by David Grey
A song that made me remember
A lost heart and a cold December

Thought she'd stick around
Instead she beat it out of town
Left me hanging in the wind
Wanting to go back to sin

Easier that way they say
Why feel when you can pay
Run from the light
Stop putting up a fight

Go to the edge of the river
And let that cold water deliver
The solution you've avoided for so long
The one that will make those feelings gone

Sat on edge staring out for a while
Until the night reduced me to a scared child
Fell asleep under a dying oak tree
And decided better that tree than me

Good and True

Too much time has slipped away
For me to lose one more day
Waiting around for you to see
The path back to me

Not getting any younger
Not getting any stronger
Just getting older
And maybe a little slower

Gotten used to being alone
That doesn't mean my seed's been sown
Still have something left to give
If you'll just let me live

Brown hair turning to grey
Every morning's two pills a day
Body's gone from rubber to cardboard
And if it's less than a quarter it stays on the floor

But I can still get up to speed
If you'll just come to me
Promise I won't go away
If you hold me every day

Will love you with all there is in me
You'll finally have that peace to let your head be
and what comes with you I'll love too
With all that's good and true

Well this is pathetic

Jeez,  six months with nothing new? Six months since I regurgitated an old post on Christmas. Six months and Rambler has nothing to say. No new stories? No new drama? No new laughs?

None of the above. I just haven't been motivated enough to sit here and cut a vein and let some blood spill out.  I'll try now.

On the professional front things couldn't be better. There indeed can be second acts and mine is going pretty well so far. No regrets at all. Sure there are occasional headaches but being far away from HQ makes it real easy for me to just focus on my world and not get distracted by other noise.

On the personal front things couldn't be muddier. Relationship drama continues. I won't get too specific here to protect the innocent but lets just say I'm learning some valuable lessons and handling a messy situation the best I can.

Good god that sounded lame. Maybe this is why I haven't been on here too much lately. I self censor.

Fluff is good. On heart meds but doing really well. Still miss Skinny.

I may have to back to rants against institutions, culture and the day-to-day struggles.

It'll be a lot more interesting than this shit.