No Returns

That new TV will cure my blues

That new TV will bring me to you

That new TV will make feel new

That new TV will make me true

That new phone will fix my head

That new phone will get me out of bed

That new phone will replace my meds

That new phone will raise the dead

Another car will get me where I want to be

Another car will make me forget about being me

Another car will make everyone finally see

Another car and I will no longer bleed

Get something to fill something

That can’t be filled 

Get something at the store

When what I need can’t be found beyond your doors

Looking for a quick fix

To get me out this fix

Looking for a quick fix

To give me a fake lift

The messages I get are all fake 

From the screens and my brain 

The messages I get are all fake

They are just out there to take 

And when the goodies are out of the box

When the new car is in the garage 

When that new TV has nothing on

I’ll still be tied up, gagged and locked

Something brings nothing

Nothing brings everything

Search and seek all the time

Is making me lose my mind

Don’t know where the answer lies

All I know is in the end we all die

Whether it’s Potter’s Field Or Hollywood Cemetery

It really doesn’t matter where we finally lie

All end up in the same place

Up or down at the end of the race

And maybe none this adds up to much

Let someone else judge

I’m tired

That's That

 

If you're looking for words of wisdom

You've stumbled down the wrong street

Nothing here for you son

Except love, loss, victory and defeat

We all think there's a better place

We all want to find some magic feeling

Truth is it's our life we waste

While we seek some deeper meaning

It is what it is and that's that.

Nothing better or worse around the next hill

And no point wasting time looking back

Another

  

Another night

Shut out the light

Give up the fight

It will never be right

 

Another day

Gone to stay

No one to pay

Nowhere to pray

 

Another week

Past its peak

Nothing to seek

Just too meek

 

Another month

Was young once

Didn't need lunch

Could take a punch

 

Another year

Gone from here

Too far, too near

It's all clear

Deleted Scene

I want to write and see how you’re doing

But I know the role I play now is strictly supporting

Wanted to be a leading man

But I failed the audition.

It’s tough to watch the play from backstage or the cheap seats

It’s not what I wanted or how I think I should be seen.

But hey it’s not about me

And that’s the way it has to be.

Doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt

When I see the Playbill and I’m not in the credits.

One Draft

 

I write one draft

It either goes up or in the trash

Don't waste time changing my words

Don't care if my thoughts make you squirm

Don't have time to analyze what it means

Am I your stalker or am I insane

Don't even care if the rhymes aren't clean

Just try to keep everything plain

Cut myself open and see what pours out

Stick a pen in my blood and make it shout

And you can look away or pretend I'm not here

Or you can come up close and ignore those fears

Doesn't really matter to me either way

In the end what you do or say

I'll still do what I do

With or without you

For Laurina

Wish you were still here

Such a beautiful scar

Watch you from afar

You were never near

Don't know how you got so dark

When you'd come so far

Don't know how your life got so stark

After you finally escaped the bar

Kept running further inside yourself

Left everyone else pounding at your door

Traded clarity for a maze of hell

Until you couldn't take it anymore

And now we're left wondering why

Nearly four years later and I still can't cry

Rather live in my lie

That you're still alive

Sometimes the hill is too big climb

Sometimes the road is too long to walk

Sometimes the water too deep to swim

Sometimes the ice is too thin to cross

You decided or did you

That the world was better off without you

Or that you're better off without the world

Either way you're not here anymore

And that fucking sucks

Your Eyes

I look into your eyes and see what was

I look into your eyes and see what will never be

I look into your eyes like a lost cause

I look into your eyes and hope you see me

Time to get out of this place

Nothing left for me here

Need to get to a wide open space

Outrun my hopes and fears

The days turn into months and years

I don't want to wake up dead here

Take me where the skies are clear

Maybe I'll find you there