Moment Of Grace

Remember throwing up and feeling like I was fainting
You wouldn't help me, didn't want to stop painting
Used to keep us working on that lawn
Raking leaves and pulling weeds until every last one was gone

Used to drive me to temple
Could never get us there on time
Should've been simple
But all you did was whine

Couldn't be bothered to be a Dad at all
Didn't know how to love or even how to play ball
Couldn't be bothered to be a Dad at all
Didn't know how to love, could only make me feel small

Took off to the city and left us in in the Garden State
Lost the house and the car
Ended up in the `hood' and was almost laid to waste
Now I cling to those scars

Don't know why you were so mad
Couldn't understand the rage in you
Only felt better when everyone else was sad
Couldn't comprehend the hate in you

Couldn't be bothered to be a Dad at all
Didn't know how to love or even how to play ball
Couldn't be bothered to be a Dad at all
Didn't know how to love, could only make me feel small

Can't carry this with me forever
Can't throw in back in your face
Can't let this rule me never
Have to find that moment of grace