The Box

Want to do 100 pushups
Want to run three laps around the reservoir
Need to take five cold showers
Punch myself to sleep

One of those nights again
Battling the beast within
Man the relief it would bring
But tomorrow where would I be?

Just feel that skin pierce
Just to feel that rush of euphoric relaxation
To escape myself and that voice that shouts

I can taste it, push it away
I can smell it, push it away
I can feel it, push it away

Want to ride it until it breaks
Want to ride it until it bleeds
Want to ride it until I crack
Want to ride it and not come back

But I know what happens
And I know it is what you want
It's the gift you say I deserve
It's the box that'll take me out