Big Nothing

Thinking about that time when I mattered
Wondering if you think about those days too
Remembering when the day was something to live
Rather than just one more thing to finish
Now each day bleeds into the other
Nothing to remember, nothing to cherish

Just sitting in the big nothing
Waiting for the sun to fade again
Just sitting in the big nothing
Wondering when I'll reach the end

So yesterday I thought about going down
Take that 10:01 train and get out
Find you in your little world
And shatter that fucker wide open
Don't think I'm that angry anymore
But sometimes that bitch just shows up
And I get afraid that I'll take this whole place apart

Just sitting in the big nothing
Waiting for that road to lead me out
Just sitting in the big nothing
And don't it make you want to shout

If I could take my pain away
And maybe your pulse too
That might be my redemption
Or just another false promise in the big nothing
Not getting out of here today
Still got my dues to pay

Just dying in the big nothing
Ain't no reverse in that hearse
Just dying in the big nothing
And you know, things could be worse