One More...

One more in the books
Still around, much to my surprise
For awhile I was doing my best to be somewhere else about now
But then I realized going was easy

Still got some hair on my head
Manage to at least please myself
No kids around me yet
But I don't feel dead

Didn't know how to do this for so long
Still figuring it out, day by day
There's no short cuts, no way out
And I don't have a problem with that anymore

I used to think it was easy
Numb myself to the point of no return
Took pride in destroying myself
Now I know that was a sellout

One more in the books
It's almost 11 and I'm the only one here
But I'm not alone
And never will be again