No Pachelbel's Canon

I never walked down that aisle

I've been alone for awhile

It's not what I anticipated in my youth

But now as the sun begins to set it is my truth

I often get asked why

By those who succeeded and those who tried

I don't have an easy answer

The one I lived through had cancer

I see my mom in a room with her books, music, coffee and cat

And I guess for me that was a life that seemed where it's at

Yes there is a heavy price to pay

But it's my only way

There is loneliness and emptiness sometimes I won't lie

And at times like these I may even breakdown and cry

But some of us may be better off walking alone

And let their hearts forever roam

Until that final resting place

Too Late

Wind teases relief
It's just more hot air
Blowing through this endless night
From which there is no escape
Roaming the street
No one here but my shadow
Creeping up on me
Like the time I'm running out of
Darkened windows and locked doors
They won't let me in
Only the moon to guide me
To the other side of the hill
Sirens cry in the distance
They got there too late

It's Easy

It's easy
To make the joke
To step away from the feeling
To run from yourself

It's easy
To put up a wall
To shut everything out
To not feel anything

It's easy
To be cynical
To be hard
To be harsh

It's easy
To bury pain
To hide emotion
To hurt

It's hard
To crack yourself open
To let your heart out
To live

And I'm home

And as I take that final look

Gasp for that last breath

A peace comes over me
As I close the book
I see your face
Not the way you left me
Beaten down and done
No, younger and still with hope
We rise higher
A warmth envelops me
And I'm home.