Not Tonight

I don't want to look tonight
Don't need to escape me
I don't want to look tonight
Nothing there for me to see

Every night it's the same thing
Searching for images and clips
Every night it's the same thing
An excuse to play with my dick

It's sucking away my soul
And eating away at my brain
It's sucking away my soul
And causing me nothing but pain

Been at this for 40 years
Sad to say but it's true
Been at this for 40 years
No wonder I'm so blue

So tonight I won't look
I'll just go to sleep
Yeah tonight I won't look
I'll just leave me be

A new year

No I'm not dead. No, I didn't OD in the bathroom of a strip club. That's for my characters not for me. They always lead more interesting lives. I've been painting. That has sort of replaced this. That and I locked myself out of my own blog and finally figured out how to get back in! 

So I'm going to try to write more. I have time on my hands. Latest relationship just ended. It lasted six months, which for me is awhile. No bad feelings. It ran its course. Kudos to her for recognizing that.

Anyway, I doubt I have any readers anymore but maybe if I get going again...

Then again, to paraphrase Ivan Drago, I write for me! FOR ME!