Do it to myself*

On a plane

Looking at the mountains below

Feeling so empty

Wondering where my life will go

It’s more than half over now

Not much to show

See friends married with kids

I’m still alone

I do it to myself

Afraid to love

I do it to myself

Afraid to live

I do it to myself

Afraid to give

I do it myself

Afraid to open

I do it to myself

Afraid of everything

Come Christmas and New Years I’ll be alone

Lost in my empty world clinging to what I don’t know

And I did it to myself.

*I'm not this depressed. Wrote this while doing some soul searching that was helpful.