Ready

Should be past it by now
No reason to continue to rent you space
Shouldn't have lasted now
No season that you haven't laid to waste

Took my winter, swallowed my spring
Now the summer is looming too
Just another notch to carve in your ring
Oh if only that were true

But I'm the one who won't leave
I'm the one who's cutting me up
Wish I could make myself see
Just not ready

So much easier this way
Act like I'm still stuck in red
Pretend I'm still caught in your sway
Convince myself that I'm dead

It's a one way fight
The kind I'll never win
Just one long night
The type that used to mean sin

But I'm the one whose living the lie
I'm the one who keeps playing the tape
Wish I could just let me be
Just not ready