Gotta Get Back

Sorry. I know it's been a long time between updates. I've been busy at work. Really busy, but that's not an excuse. If I'm going to write then I really need to do it.

I know that I also need to do it outside of the home. I can't do it here. I'm powerless over Internet porn. Maybe if I write I'll realize it. Until I deal with it though, it's tough for me to work at home. On the one hand, I guess an almost 45 year-old man who can get off four times a day isn't so bad. But it is a time sucker and I know it's not about sex. It's about taking myself out of myself.

There is this real cool coffee shop just a few blocks away. I could even walk there if I wanted to not worry about parking. I need to just start going there and trying to write. Especially on a night like this when I don't have anything going on. I thought I might have a date tonight, but not the case. I'm OK with that too. I've been dating this one girl for about five weeks and it is going fine. I like her but am not in any rush to jump into anything. I don't feel I'm head-over-heels but then again the last few times I've gone that route it really hasn't worked it out so well, as we all know.

She's pretty, in her late-30s, never married. She's slightly damaged, which is good for me. She's in between careers. Good sense of humor. We're going very slow on the physical stuff and I'm OK with that too. The minute you sleep together, it ups the ante and no need to jump into anything.

I have a date with someone else tomorrow night. It's a second date with this girl someone in the program set me up with. She's much younger, 30 or 32. My friend didn't realize what a geezer I was.

I don't really want to date multiple people, this just worked out that way. The one I'm going out with tomorrow is nice but I'm not sure. I figure this next date will decide if I want a third and really complicate things. Of course, the first girl and I have no agreement and we've hardly fooled around besides some making out so really, not doing anything bad here.

I got a raise at work! I took a pretty big pay cut to come back to journalism and this raise is nice. I'm not back to where I was nor would I expect that to happen. But I'm now making the most I've ever made as a reporter and the raise I got was 30%!!

Going to DC next week. My brother is having a heart operation. It's not major. I mean anything they slice you open and play with your heart, it's major. But this should be fairly routine. Nonetheless, it is important to go back and show up. It's what I do.

I'm really glad I'm back here in LA even if I'm at home on a Saturday night. It's the first Saturday I've been alone for a long time so really is not that big a deal.

I will once again pledge to try to write more. I only have four or five of you readers so I should at least do this a few times a week.

By the way, Pandora is a great music site.